Life is definitely a journey as I have discovered overwhelmingly over the past 12 years since I graduated from my undergraduate. There are so many moments when you think you have 'arrived' at a destination only to find it was simply a brief moment along the way. These moments are however what make the journey worthwhile, and the destination in the end is the moment when one no longer breaths life's breath.
Having accepted gradually over the last few years that I must always be open to change and the unexpected, I also open myself to intensity of life and all its moments.
This past month, more than most, has embodied several of life's moment and I am left with my head spinning. There have been moments of ultimate euphoria and others where I have felt that the pain will overwhelm me. What strikes me so acutely in all of these moments is the people that have been there with me. I recount these now to you my blog reader as I still try and understand them all.
The moment I felt my heart break and looked up to see a very dear friend there to give me a hug and share a lunchtime hour with me.
The moment where I realised that time has now past and the future must begin and all around me are people who care.
The moment when I overwhelmingly felt a great desire to rediscover my city and embracing it with all it's peculiarities!
The euphoric moment when I discovered my PhD viva was the best conversation I had ever had about my work and my passion for it.
This moment was followed 2 hours later with the moment when I was informed I had got my PhD, and I looked down the table to my supervisor and realised that this moment meant as much to her as it did to me.
The moments where I was overwhelmed and honoured by all the messages of support and congrats from family and friends across the globe.
The several moments I had in the week following as I lay awake at night, accepting that I had been given 6 months of 'time' where I could fulfill the writing desires that had emerged from the viva.
The moment where I accepted that my life would never be straight-forward as that would make it less interesting.
The moment where a skype chat with a dear friend made me laugh outloud because she knew just how to do that.
The moment where I went to visit an old friend and a hug reminded me of how lucky I really am with all the people in my life.
The moment or moments when you realise that there is always a way through pain and change even if it seems daunting at first.
You cannot put a fire out;
A thing that can ignite
Can go, itself, without a fan
Upon the slowest night.
You cannot fold a flood
And put it in a drawer,-
Because the winds would find it out,
And tell your cedar floor.
Emily Dickinson
This past month, more than most, has embodied several of life's moment and I am left with my head spinning. There have been moments of ultimate euphoria and others where I have felt that the pain will overwhelm me. What strikes me so acutely in all of these moments is the people that have been there with me. I recount these now to you my blog reader as I still try and understand them all.
The moment I felt my heart break and looked up to see a very dear friend there to give me a hug and share a lunchtime hour with me.
The moment where I realised that time has now past and the future must begin and all around me are people who care.
The moment when I overwhelmingly felt a great desire to rediscover my city and embracing it with all it's peculiarities!
The euphoric moment when I discovered my PhD viva was the best conversation I had ever had about my work and my passion for it.
This moment was followed 2 hours later with the moment when I was informed I had got my PhD, and I looked down the table to my supervisor and realised that this moment meant as much to her as it did to me.
The moments where I was overwhelmed and honoured by all the messages of support and congrats from family and friends across the globe.
The several moments I had in the week following as I lay awake at night, accepting that I had been given 6 months of 'time' where I could fulfill the writing desires that had emerged from the viva.
The moment where I accepted that my life would never be straight-forward as that would make it less interesting.
The moment where a skype chat with a dear friend made me laugh outloud because she knew just how to do that.
The moment where I went to visit an old friend and a hug reminded me of how lucky I really am with all the people in my life.
The moment or moments when you realise that there is always a way through pain and change even if it seems daunting at first.
You cannot put a fire out;
A thing that can ignite
Can go, itself, without a fan
Upon the slowest night.
You cannot fold a flood
And put it in a drawer,-
Because the winds would find it out,
And tell your cedar floor.
Emily Dickinson